At an empass in my life. For 2 weeks now Jeremy & I have fought every night. The house is so tense. I don't know if he loves me anymore or if he even wants to be with me. He has been cold and distant and ignoring me. I find myself reminded of what I went through with T. I love Jeremy so very much but I don't want to relive the past. I'm scared to lose him, scared to be alone, scared of how much I love him. Just so very unsure of what to do at this point...he's adamant that he loves me and cares for me but has not shown it at all, all week no affection no touch no love no caring what so ever.
So on my way home from work today I stopped and bought him roses and a card. I thought maybe if I could just touch his spirit or his heart, he would see me. No such luck, he has been just as distant and on his phone all night as he has been all week. So I'm going to bed, the heartache is just too much for me to bear and I will probably cry myself to sleep but I don't care.
I just hope he snaps out of whatever he's in because he's breaking my heart.
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